Adoption, Life, Parenting

He didn’t have a clue.


This man you see here in this picture had NO CLUE! He had no idea what God had in store for him when he said yes to being my Dad. No clue that this little girl in this picture was so broken, it would take the next 30 years to even start seeing any signs of absolute healing. Let’s just say that my parents didn’t get the angel they prayed for. He didn’t know that for the next few decades they would just be praying that their little girl would be ok. I’m sure year after year their expectations became lower and lower as to what “ok” meant. I gave them utter hell y’all. I was not the dream child that they had hoped and prayed for. I know this.

We have been through some deep dark valleys, but none that God didn’t see us through. God was walking with my Dad when I couldn’t receive or reciprocate love. He was with my Dad when he was having to console my Mom after I disappointed, hurt and lashed out.

I mean…he just wanted to be a Dad. They were trying and couldn’t have a baby. So, God gave them me. I’m sure they thought they got punk’d and was ready for the joke to end. (It did…they finally got Kara and Misti haha) Seriously though, he just wanted to be my Dad. The Dad who WOULDN’T beat me. The Dad who wouldn’t abuse me and say it was love. The Dad who wouldn’t abandon me, no matter how many times I pushed him away. He just wanted to provide the best he could for me. To create a life and a home that put God first. To be the priest of our household that would show us Christ and lead us to Him, because he knows that Jesus is the only place where my true peace was.215933_1977351962294_1812669_n

Thank you for showing me Jesus through the kind of DAD you were. You prayed for me until I truly gave my life to God. You kept coming back after each rejection. You loved me until I could love you back. You showed me Jesus, so I could show others.

Dad, you call me one of your greatest miracles. I call you MINE.

I love you.

Books, Life

My book review of Eat Cake. Be Brave. by Melissa Radke

I was able to read an advance copy of this book as part of her book launch team. It is available for pre-order now, but it isn’t available for purchase until July 17th. Read my review and the others. You will want this book for yourself, your cousin, your sister, your Mama, your best friend and her Mama too! I wouldn’t steer you wrong. I will definitely be getting the audible version of this too on July 17th, because Melissa reads this herself on the audio version….and I can’t wait to hear her tell it, besides in my own head.
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Eat Cake. Be Brave.

Eat Cake. Be Brave. by Melissa Radke

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

This book was the whole enchilada. “Eat Cake Be Brave” will make you laugh, because she is a master at being painfully real. You will see yourself, whether you want to or not, in so many chapters. It will make you cringe because maybe you have been the person that she speaks of that was hurt or maybe because you were the person who has hurt others. ((hand raised)) You will cry because you will feel the pain that she went through, even if you have never experienced exactly what she is describing. So many times throughout the book, I just wanted to hop in my car and drive to Lufkin, TX and give her a big ol’ hug! It will challenge you to be a better version of yourself. She doesn’t pull any punches here. She is raw, real and honest about how she dealt with real-life relationship issues, rejections and, poor decisions. Through it all though, there was a plan to bring it all around to do some good. This book is part of it. So many have been helped by her sharing what God has brought her through already. The way she shares Jesus is so special. He is accessible, loving, kind, gentle and dependable. If you don’t know Him…you will want to after reading about His faithfulness in this book.