I’m sorry I bled on you.

Happy New Year!!

A new year signifies a clean slate, new beginnings, new habits. Let’s start 2019 by giving God complete control, so He can heal our hearts and wounded places inside of us so we stop bleeding on people who didn’t cut us.

It was a regular Friday night and I am scrolling through Facebook, minding my own business, when this quote jumped out at me and has been hanging around my heart and mind ever since. “If you never heal from what hurt you, you’ll bleed on people who didn’t cut you.” Wow! That was me… Before…

You see, I was bleeding out for over 30 years…all over people that didn’t cut me and some that actually did. But somewhere along the way, God prepared me to begin the healing path that He has had me on for over a decade now. My desire is for everyone to take a long look inside and start the healing process in 2019. The Bible says in PSALM 55:22 (AMP) Cast your burden on the LORD [release it] and He will sustain and uphold you; He will never allow the righteous to be shaken (slip, fall, fail).

We all have those broken places in us that when touched, we recoil or lash out from past hurts, rejections, failures, feelings of inadequacy or poor choices. We tend to want to cover those places up, hoping nobody notices the deep gashes that we sustained as a result of our poor choices or someone else’s. Those are the exact areas God wants to uncover and heal. He wants to use those places in us to help others that are dealing with those same things. We just have to be willing to let the facade of “Everything’s fine”, “My marriage is so perfect”, “Peachy keen over here”, just look at my Facebook and Instagram…that’ll prove it….yeah, that facade…it has to GO in 2019. Aren’t you tired of the struggle? Tired of new relationships? Tired of lying to yourself and others about how happy you are? Tired of “bleeding” on those that didn’t cut you?

It’s time we stop looking to the new hobby, the new significant other, the new car, new friend, the new house, food or the newest gadget to make us happy, feel successful or worthy.

In order to identify the places that need to be healed… You have to look inside and be very honest with yourself. Why do you embellish the truth sometimes, why do you put others down, why do you make light of other’s accomplishments, why do you keep leaving relationships before they leave you, why do you have to have the best of everything, why can’t you ever say you’re sorry? I could go on and on. Most likely the answer can be found in the wounded places that you haven’t uncovered and given fully to the only one who can heal it. Jesus. PSALM 34:18 (AMP) The LORD is near to the heartbroken And He saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Let’s stop the bleeding. It’s time. Don’t let 2019 go by without dealing with those hard things. It’s not fun, but it is so worth it. Ask God to come close and show you an area that you can give to Him and let Him heal you. He will show you who you are to Him. Then other’s opinions will matter less and less. He will fill that place in you that you keep trying to fill with food, men, women, substances, money or possessions. He will give you compassion in place of judgment, contentment in place of disappointment. Unexplainable peace, when the world says you shouldn’t have any, confidence instead of worry. Nothing will ever satisfy those places in you because it is only His to fill.

Don’t worry. You can trust Him. I’ve only known Him to be faithful. He is good. He IS ENOUGH.

2019 CAN be different.

It’s time.