Adoption, Life, Parenting

He didn’t have a clue.


This man you see here in this picture had NO CLUE! He had no idea what God had in store for him when he said yes to being my Dad. No clue that this little girl in this picture was so broken, it would take the next 30 years to even start seeing any signs of absolute healing. Let’s just say that my parents didn’t get the angel they prayed for. He didn’t know that for the next few decades they would just be praying that their little girl would be ok. I’m sure year after year their expectations became lower and lower as to what “ok” meant. I gave them utter hell y’all. I was not the dream child that they had hoped and prayed for. I know this.

We have been through some deep dark valleys, but none that God didn’t see us through. God was walking with my Dad when I couldn’t receive or reciprocate love. He was with my Dad when he was having to console my Mom after I disappointed, hurt and lashed out.

I mean…he just wanted to be a Dad. They were trying and couldn’t have a baby. So, God gave them me. I’m sure they thought they got punk’d and was ready for the joke to end. (It did…they finally got Kara and Misti haha) Seriously though, he just wanted to be my Dad. The Dad who WOULDN’T beat me. The Dad who wouldn’t abuse me and say it was love. The Dad who wouldn’t abandon me, no matter how many times I pushed him away. He just wanted to provide the best he could for me. To create a life and a home that put God first. To be the priest of our household that would show us Christ and lead us to Him, because he knows that Jesus is the only place where my true peace was.215933_1977351962294_1812669_n

Thank you for showing me Jesus through the kind of DAD you were. You prayed for me until I truly gave my life to God. You kept coming back after each rejection. You loved me until I could love you back. You showed me Jesus, so I could show others.

Dad, you call me one of your greatest miracles. I call you MINE.

I love you.